Saturday, July 30, 2011

Monday, July 25, 2011

Let Light Shine Out of Darkness




Truth Bites

What is repentance? 

Forgiveness

Pride and Low Self-Esteem

SONA 2011

‎"Wala akong duda sa kahihinatnan ng mga repormang inilatag natin. Hindi po tayo nagbubukambibig lang; may kongkretong resulta ang ating mga paninindigan. Kapag sinabi nating tuwid na daan, may katapat itong kalsada sa Barangay Bagumbayan sa Sta. Maria, Laguna." - Pres. Noynoy Aquino

Monday, July 18, 2011

Sa May 5th of September

 Hatinggabi na nang matapos ang aming pag-eensayo. Maya-maya lang ay nag-aya na si Yang na umuwi kami ng sabay-sabay.
“ Ihatid nyo muna ako sa bahay ko sa may 5th of September”, wika ni Emil.
Umaawit pa rin kami habang papalabas ng Vega. Pansin mo pa rin sa kahabaan ng grove ang mga estudyanteng nagliparan na animo’y mga paniki—punong-puno ng saya habang di pa dumarating ang umaga.
Panay naman ang pagsasalita ni Quino habang ako ay oo lang ng oo. Ganyan talaga si Quino—makwento. Asul na towel at celfone lamang ang bitbit nya nung gabing iyon. Dala ko naman ang pink kong bag na bili pa sa Paete ng kapatid ko. Mahalaga ang mga laman noon: id, Sony Ericsson T100 na celfone, at malaking pabangong Baby Bench na regalo ng tito ko noong kaarawan ko. Maamoy mo rin sa loob ang Chippy na tira ko noong kami ay nageensayo.
Di namin mapigil ang kwentuhan at tawanan habang binabaybay namin ang FO Santos. Bihira na ang mga sasakyan na pumaparoo’t parito. Ramdam mo na rin ang lalim ng gabi at iba na ang tono ng kahol ng mga aso. Papalapit na kami sa may 5th of September. Nakakapanindig balahibo ang paligid—madilim, walang ilaw ang poste at lubak-lubak ang daan.
“O sige, dito nalang ako, ingat kayo”, at pumasok na si Emil sa makipot na eskinita patungo sa apartment nila.
Ngayon naman ay patungo na kami kina Yang. Sa mata ng isang freshman ay parang napag-iwanan na ng kabihasnan ang lugar na dinadaanan namin. Dumaan kami sa harapan ng 5th of September at lumiko pakaliwa. Maya-maya lang ay may humagibis na traysikel sa kalsadang dinaraanan namin. Biglang may bumabang tatlong lalake na mukhang goons—nakasuot ng itim at may itim na bonet. Ay! Holdap na pala ito! Hinuli nila ang dalawa kong kaibigan.
“Holdap to! Holdap to! Walang sisigaw!”
Tinutukan nila ng kutsilyo si Quino at hinawakan ng mahigpit si Yang. Tumakbo ako papalayo, sa pag-aakalang hindi nila ako mahuhuli, pero sa isang saglit lang ay may mahabang baril na na nakatutok sa akin.
“O saan ka pupunta?!”
“Sori po, sori po!”, wika ko habang nakataas ang dalawa kong mga kamay.
Pakiramdam ko noon ay iyon na ang aking huling gabi. Konting maling kilos lang ay pwede ka nang paputukan. Napuno na kami ng takot at hindi na namin malaman ang gagawin.
Inisprayan ng tear gas sa mukha ang dalawa kong kasama. Bigla kong itinagilid ang aking ulo nang maramdaman ko na may sumisirit na sa mukha ko. Hindi nahagip ng tear gas ang kanan kong pisngi. Pero sa kabila ay ramdam na ramdam ko ang hapdi. Hindi ako makamulat at makahinga. Ang sakit. Ang baho.
Kinuha nila ang celfone ni Quino saka ang bag namin ni Yang.
“Akina ang bag mo!”
Buong takot kong binigay ang aking bag. Hindi ko na inalintana ang mga laman noon. Buhay na namin ang nakataya rito. Pinadapa nila kami sa tabi, sa may damuhan. Sabay pinaputok sa tabi namin ang dala nilang baril. Bang! Sabay sakay sa dala nilang traysikel.
Sobrang lakas at kabingi-bingi ang putok nito. Akala ko noon ay may binaril sa isa sa amin. Hindi ko alam kung iiyak ako o sisigaw sa sandaling iyon. Namanhid na ang katawan ko sa sobrang takot. Sabay-sabay kaming tumayo at pumunta sa pinakamalapit na lugar na may tao—ang 5th of September. Sinalubong kami ng gwardya, walang kamuwang-muwang sa nangyari. Pinapasok kami at pinaghilamos.
Noong gabing iyon ay umuwi akong walang dala kundi ang takot. Saka ko lang naramdaman ang lungkot na nakakabagabag at panghihinayang sa mga gamit kong nasa kamay na ng mga tulisan. Buti nalang hindi nila kami binaril. Marahil ngayon ay bahagi na kami ng kasaysayan ng UPLB. Ang gabing iyon ay lubhang naging aral sa akin. Naging daan ito para lubos kong maunawaan ang kahalagahan ng buhay. Laking pasasalamat ko na kahit dumaan kami sa kamay ng mga taong nakakapit sa patalim ay nakauwi parin kaming humihinga.
Ngayon ay mag-iingat na ako. Uuwi na agad ako sa bahay pagkatapos ng mahahalagang gawain. Hindi na ako pupunta sa madidilim na kalsada. Hindi na ako dadaan sa may 5th of September.

Nang Ako'y Mabangga

After the practice I had dinner with Junifrio. We've talked about worship, music and other 'religious' stuffs. I borrowed David's book, the  'The Unquenchable worshiper'. "I'll return it agad bukas," I told him. It was past 9 when we parted ways and when I rode the jeep.


The jeepney halted just across BPI. As usual, sa Casubha parin ako nakatira. I went down, looked at the right side, and a little on the left. As I walked across the street, a speeding motorbike came by like a flying arrow. Blag#%^&#%#(!*#!!!!!!!!!   Para akong sinagasaang aso (hehe). All I saw was an approaching headlight and I never knew what happened next. There I was, lying unconscious in the middle of Lopez Avenue.

 I didn't know kung pano ako nakabangon. "Nabangga ako?!," saka ko lang na realize.

"Amazing!! I'm still alive!!" A woman passed by, "Sige, sumakay kana.." As she was saying that I saw my pink summery slippers in the middle of the street.

"Yung tsinelas ko po..."

Then, I saw a blood oozing from my elbow. I shouted, "Dugo!!!" at nag-panic na ako..
I was extremely shocked when I saw the driver, unconsious and with blood all over. Andun yung maraming tao. I thought he was dead. Nobody have noticed me except that woman who passed by. They brought both of us to lbdh. He was brought straightly to the ER, but I was there, outside. I was afraid to go wid him inside bec he was filled with blood.

I just stood at the door, looking at him.

"Ineng, pasensya kana ha?"

"Ok lang po," I answered gently.

After a few minutes, the music team came. I thought everythin was ok na until  the doctor saw my wound and said ,"naku, kailangang tahiin to."  HWHAT!!!?? no way! pero kelangan tlaga, wala akong magagawa. I was affraid of all of these: hospital, syringes, blood. this was the day of disaster, but the Lord was my support.

Aside from having 6 stitches, I also endured 4 AGONIZING injections: 2 anti tetanus shots, 1 ouccchhhhhyy skin test and 1 on my wound. Thanks to kya Rom's hand,the one I was holdin on while syringes were being injected upon me.After a while my family came. my mom's blood pressure soared and my father's stomach went into a revolution. We went home and i didn't play that Sunday.

The morning i woke up I couldn't walk and move my neck. I've got a big bruise on my left leg and several 'bukols' on my head.People visited me that day. they were amazed dat this was the only thing I got from that incident. Some exclaimed, "ang swerte mo naman," as if I cheated death.Napa 'praise the Lord' pa ung iba.

It's quite ironic that I was really amazed of all that happened. that deep, wide wound was an inch closer on my elbow. SOme said that if my elbow was the one that was hit, maybe i would live with an iron arm the rest of my days.

The man who had bumped me was more injured: his nose was broken and bleeding and he was confined in a day or two. He even cried, and his mother too. But everything between us was peace. My uncles got to know his father and theyve realized that it was a small world after all.


Sunday, July 17, 2011

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Love loved

http://www.maxlucado.com/articles/topical/learning_to_love_loved

WHO AM I?

IDENTITY http://www.xenos.org/classes/principles/cpu2w3.htm

New Identity Worksheet

ASPECTS OF OUR NEW IDENTITY
RESULTING SPIRITUAL PROVISION
SYMPTOMS OF NOT "KNOWING", "CONSIDERING", AND/OR "PRESENTING"
EXAMPLES OF HOW TO "PRESENT"
Adoption as God's Child
(Eph. 1:5)
Belonging: security in the this life
Idolatrous human relationships
Material anxiety
Fear of rejection
  • Loving discipline & witness
  • Financial Giving
Forgiveness through Jesus' death for sin
(Eph. 1:7; Col. 2:13,14)
Acceptance apart from performance
Destructive reactions to guilt feelings (defensive, preoccupation with your wrongs)
Resentment, bitterness toward others
Man-pleasing
  • Forgiving others
  • Honesty with others about our sins
Unique role in God's purpose
(Eph. 1:9,10; 2:10)
Significance
Unhealthy comparison to others
Vulnerability to career identity
Reactive to critique of performance or lack
  • Appreciate & support others in their ministries
  • Focused ministry involvement
  • Evaluate performance critique before the Lord - is it true? He loves me nonetheless.
Inheritance(Eph. 1:11,14)
Security in the next life
Vulnerability to temporal security
Fear of death
  • Willingness to take risks and even suffer.
  • Long-term investment in ministry, including material generosity.
Delivered From Sin Nature's Authority
(ROM 6:6; Col. 2:11,12)
Freedom from sin's control
No deep seated change or growth in our lives, superficial view of sin, helplessness and fatalism.
  • Openness about your besetting sins
  • Faithful, patient persistence as we cooperate with God's strategy for change
  • Other-centered focus in spite of besetting sins
Delivered From Satan's Authority
(Eph. 1:20,21; 2:6; Col. 2:10,15;)
Freedom from demonic control
Vulnerable to temptation; accusation; kosmos; oppression
Fear & superstition
  • Refusal to cave in & quit
  • Following God's will
  • Prayer warfare

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

chords

MAHAL KITA
(Key of E)

       E                     C#m         A                     G#m       C#m
MAHAL KITA O AKING PANGINOON
 F#m7              B                  B7                       A/B   B
IKAW ANG HIGIT NA KAILANGAN KO
       E                     C#m         A                      G#m       C#m
MAHAL KITA O AKING PANGINOON
  F#m7             B                  B7
IKAW ANG HIGIT NA KAILANGAN KO
  
                                             E                          E7
KORO:       ANG MAKILALA KA’T PAGLINGKURAN
                               A                             Am
                   HANGAD NG PUSO KO
                                            E          C#m
                   SALAMAT PO O DIYOS
                            F#m7  B        E
                   AKO’Y INIBIG MO