I need to go slow........I sensed that I'm going ahead of God. The beauty I see in everything that surrounds me has already faded. I'm not consumed with the present anymore. At times I find my thoughts rehearsing the past or projecting into the future. My spiritual receptivity, which I need most, has gone dull. Yet the truth about God's presence never changes. He is with me. He has been with me. I just need to be aware of it, and this awareness must be cultivated until it becomes the consuming thing in my life.